Entry No. 189 · The Long Game

Letting the Leaves Go

A Backyard Brew Story

By Ryan Khalil (R.Solace) · September 23, 2026 · 4 min read

Letting the Leaves Go — The Long Game, a Backyard Brew story by R.Solace (Ryan Khalil)

My boys,

The tree does not chase the leaves.

All spring it made them.

Fed them.

Pushed water through them.

Turned them toward the sun.

All summer they gave the tree what they could.

Shade.

Energy.

Protection.

Then September comes.

The light changes.

The nights cool.

And something the tree has spent months keeping alive begins to leave.

It does not mean the leaves were mistakes.

It does not mean the tree failed to hold them.

Their leaving is part of what they came to do.

I wonder how much suffering comes from asking things to remain after their season has ended.

A friendship.

A version of yourself.

A business idea.

A house.

A dream.

A person you loved.

The future you were certain would happen.

We wrap our hands around the branch and call holding on loyalty.

But the tree knows something we don't.

Keeping every leaf would kill it.

So it begins withdrawing what must be withdrawn.

Slowly.

Quietly.

No anger at the leaf.

No shame in the branch.

No argument with the wind.

The green fades.

Gold appears.

Then one morning the connection becomes thin enough.

And the leaf goes.

The tree does not follow.

It stands.

Bare branches are not empty branches.

They are branches no longer spending themselves on what cannot remain.

That is why letting go requires faith.

For a while, the tree looks like it has less.

No shade.

No fruit.

No beautiful canopy.

Nothing to prove it is still becoming something.

Only wood against a cold sky.

But beneath the bark, life has not stopped.

It has moved inward.

God does some of His quietest work there.

Where nobody can see growth.

Where nothing looks impressive.

Where what was once full has become spare.

You will have seasons like that.

Do not mistake them for death.

When something has truly finished, thank it for the shade it gave you.

Thank God for the season you had it.

Then loosen your hand.

The tree survives winter because it knows what not to carry into it.

I love you.

— Baba

Question:

What are you still trying to carry into the next season simply because you loved it in the last one?

Moral:

Release does not make what came before meaningless. Some things fulfill their purpose by leaving, and wisdom is knowing when gratitude must become letting go.

This story reflects real experiences and philosophies behind Backyard Brew. It is shared to inspire perspective and intention.

Author: R. Solace

This story is a real lesson learned by Ryan Khalil. AI was used to help organize and structure the stories you're reading. The intent of these stories is to help, not to hurt.

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